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Being fat in Japan is now illegal. LOL, FAT POLICE WILL COME AND GET YOU!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I have so many things to do. I should study like there’s a final every tomorrow.

COME ON, YOU HAVE TO LAUGH AT THIS ONE.

Pardon me for being all lovey and crap, I can’t help it. ARGH

So, after tonight, I decided to look for a long-term partner. I don’t want short term, convenient, don’t-have-to-text-you-or-call relationships. I want real love, real relationships, real boyfriends. Where I can say,

“Oh, my boyfriend gave it to me.”,

“Oh, my boyfriend is picking me up in a minute.”,

” Thanks amour!”

Something REAL. Real, CONSUMING, irritating, inconvenient,ridiculous,EPIC,bizarre,UNCONDITIONAL, can’t-live-without love. I want that one day. SO, i decided, I will look for someone who DOESN’T have a girlfriend/wife, and is willing to stand my nonsense 24/7.

A boyfriend. A real relationship.

My friends, I officially DO boyfriends. I DO relationships. I DO commitments.

NOT NOW. BECAUSE I NEED TIME TO ALTER MYSELF.

shit, this don’t sound good….

“F love. Come out of the situation and look at it third person and for what it really is, and then make your decision, because love is so blind.”

-Rihanna

…caught in nets too.

So do I turn to Boethius for some moral reprimandings too?

Some things we weren’t taught or told about when we were young; so we know nothing and sometimes learn it the hard way. I have a set of parents that are taught to be conservative and are conservative. My mom tries to be progressive and go against the family values, but eventually have this 4 hour rebound rate and she will be back being all ‘girls shouldn’t roam…you shouldn’t press the button…you shouldn’t highlight your hair etc’

Trust me, the more you tell me not to. The more I yearn to.

It’s called Negative Suggestion, GOOGLE it.

I am confused on so many levels.

Moral, what? Immoral, what?

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Research essay for English Lit class– I feel like I’m at war with ze papers again. I have always been at war, oh my god, what I’m I saying! I hope I’m in ship-shape for the class. I need to pass this one. SERIOUSLY.

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Enough turmoils, enough tissues and issues. I’m done.

…

…you just scarred me for life.

First of all, what happened on friday kept running through my brain like it’s a broken record. I am emotional today for a reason, oestrogen/PMS/you, whatever it is. I have to stop. I have to be happy. I am still on the bargaining level, where I still bargain for justice when there’s none left for me. I need to accept the fact that everything is done.

It’s Calvin’s birthday today! Dined at Kirin, squeezed 8 people in a toyota camry and cruised around the almost-empty multi-storey carpark. Two people were on the driver’s seat and I swear to god the sharp turns they make can possibly overturn the car. It was like a rollercoaster ride on the pump.

Then afterwards, everyone got off the car and we decided to go home. I offered to drive the car back to the parking lot where Denny parked his car. I. turned into. the curb. too quickly. and I destroyed the whole wheel including the rims. I really felt like an idiot. HOW COULD I MISS THAT CURB? I should have worn my glasses. I should have been a little bit more cautious. I felt like crap for the next 5 hours.

I am so sorry.

sad

We called in the police to help us with the spare tyre, strangers offered help, took us an hour or so to get everything fixed. I felt so bad because I did nothing.

I am so sorry.

Last last night was at ruby skye for a halloween party, was suppose to be a secretary but I lose my nerdy specs for some reason. I was too drunk I think. Bad night, sad night.

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Next night at Shroup Park….

Collaborated with DeAnza for halloween, themed it ‘Night Flight’, our party venue was literally decorated according to how an aeroplane looks like, from the aisle to the 3/4/3 seating arrangement.Love it. Intrigued by Iwan’s and Jeff’s amazing feminine voice. lol Was the Emcee for the night, had a ball with Astria. Didn’t take much pictures because I left my camera at home. Which is a pain. I love my costume, though it’s pretty simple. All in all, it’s not a bad night after all. I actually managed to pick myself up.

I think I can be stronger than this. I can be better than this.

You picked out. You chose.

I don’t think I can understand. But, I don’t expect anything.

So, goodbye.

and I wish you love.